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As you all know, this year has been an extremely challenging and difficult year for me... But, I'm going to keep this simple, after all, I'm not blummin' Gwyneth Paltrow!
I am thankful that I have the boy in my life. He has held me up when I've been crumbling, has been my rock through the toughest of times and has stood by me no matter what I've thrown at him. He is the shining star in my darkness and I love him more than anyone could ever know. We are each others future and I'm no longer alone in this. We will share our journey together and I know he will be there always always, bringing me the hope my heart lacks.
I am thankful for my pussycat Daisy. It sounds really daft to be thankful for an animal, but Daisy Bella means the world to me. She came to me in the most traumatic of circumstances but I like to think that Bunty knew that I needed her. She keeps me company everyday and is always by my side. Her and the boy are my own little family and I love her so much.
I am thankful for my family - my own family and the boys family. They have all helped and supported me this year whenever I have needed it. I am especially grateful for my mama. She's done everything for me even when she has been going through an absolutely horrific time herself. I've learnt that family are the most important thing to me - the ones that are always there for you regardless and after all my family has been through this year, it makes you realise how much they really do mean.
Even though she comes under the same label, I am so thankful for my best friend and soul 'sister', Loulaboo. Thankful for her weekly visits, for her daily texts, for keeping me up to date on the gossip and accompanying me on shopping days - in a carer style! - and for most of all just being my friend when I've needed a friend. I am thankful that she is my family so I'll have her around forever.
I am thankful for the friends who have stood by me this year, who have contacted me, visited me, kept me in the loop. I'm also thankful to all the 'friends' that haven't been there for me because at least now I can stop wasting so much time and effort on them. My mama always said, you'll learn who your true friends are when you need them the most, and I most certainly have.
I'm thankful for all the support I have found online. For my endosisters, who know exactly what I'm going through, for all of you who read and follow the blog, for all of you who take the time to notice me. I am thankful for having found an outlet in EMLWY.
Finally, I'm thankful that I have a roof over my head, that 2013 isn't far away, for my painkillers, internet connection and Netflix, thankful that I am safe here and that I wake up every day with a breath of fresh air in my lungs.
It's some times difficult to remember all the things we have when you feel like you have nothing.
I may not have my health, but I am very lucky to have everything else.